once again friend2002-08-21 | 9:39 p.m. what would you think if you saw her rummaging through a pile of meaninglessness looking only for orginization when she happened upon an old memory of you. what would you think if you saw hear tear it up and discard of it like an angry reminder of a bitter past. would you think its a broken heart? what if she wondered what it would be like to never see you again and what if she realized she wouldnt really care. shes completely sure of herself that she doesnt need you, you dont need her, and you dont quite mean as much as she once thought you did back when. maybes shes only tired of your inconsistancy and fickle "love". maybe she feels sold out on your charmed words that came and went like a chilly breeze. and she knows she wont really miss you.... except... maybe if one late night when shes older [and more alone than ever] she'll happen to be depressed and drunk at the same time and hear a song that she might remember reminds her of you. and she'll cry and blubber in soft, slurred sobs. remembering only the good times with you [which were few and far] thinking that maybe she lost a friend who cared or at least she pretended he did.. till she can cry no more. and she'll lie down and bleed from the outside in... till she can bleed no more. and shell once again become the empty shell of a person that she was once before- back when you thought you loved her. back when you thought she was beautiful. and one day, in a phenominal chance, you'll be in the same grocery store. even the same isle. older, still, in your age. and you wont even recognize eachother. you, with your "perfect", smiling wife walking [pulling your leash] down the isle, picking out the perfect tomato sauce. Her, with her dark sunglasses and unlit ciggarette, softly singing along to the 80's poprock on the grocery store intercom. running her fingers absent-mindedly along the boxes of pasta. your wife insisting on the portabello mushroom sauce with a hint of pepperjack cheese and your wife doesnt know you despise pepperjack cheese, but She does. however, you wont even pay her a second glance... and She wont even pay you a first. because She never missed you [except....] < > < |
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