two toned

2008-11-17 | 2:57 p.m.

getting nothing done
and i didnt put my cigarette out all the way. of course. why not?
burn down the house and the mail and the tv for the sake of that which kills me anyhow. and the sickly sweet smell of the smoldering ashes kindling the plant i burried with you in a pot we bought makes me so sad but i wont try to put it out.

it died so pitifully. neglected. for naught. and i could of saved it but then again so could you.
and i could not text that boy back
or lean against him
i could choose to tear that gaze away
but iiii......

one more button. one more inch. one more second.

pushing my luck. my love and malice.