such a simple yes2009-02-12 | 1:13 a.m.
i had a dream that this boy was standing so close to me. just barely touching me. i woke up not remembering what i had dreamed. just a staggering need to get back to wherever i had been. i felt i had left something safe and peaceful. somewhere i finally belonged. and i longed to return. but i knew i could not recreate whatever it was. and that even if i fell back asleep, the scenarios were out of my hand. for hours i laid there. paralyzed. ignoring my hunger and thirst. finally i got up and as i drove down the road, i remembered that dream. vivid. real. and the heaviness of my heart expelled the breath from my breast. and it seeped dismally past my parted lips. because its all my fault. |
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