accent agu

2002-08-17 | 12:34 a.m.

i feel awful cos i hate me and i hate my life

so much

i feel so disconnected.

i hardly like my freinds

i dont dont feel much for them

and they dont do much for me

so here i am

just walking and doing what i have to do

i get dragged where i dont want to go

im 18 years old

i have to be home by 11:30 pm or sometimes 12 pm still.

on my 18th birthday. i got nothing and my family ate my cake. no, i dont get a peice.

on my 17th birthday they did the same thing plus my brothers popped my balloons.

on my 16th, we had a party.

i didnt get to pick who came.

and i didnt get to pick what we did.

before that? i dont remember.

and i'm my only friend online right now.

who cares.

i beginning to think i do.