knife back crimson... "stab" she said2002-10-29 | 12:18 p.m. you can tell me all you want tell me anything but you tell me nothing i can read *his eyes and voice but they shake when i touch *him- and my vision is obscured we are adults a boy persues me endlessly and it breaks my heart he just wants to be with me for a little while and somehow i cannot help him another boy pretends that he'll save me pretended hes in love with me. he tried hard to convince me. he convinced everyone else. he said he wanted to get away. he knew me better than most had ever but it was also vice versa and i knew he was a liar and he only spoke to me when he needed me and never vice versa and so vice versa tore our fauxship apart right. and so it goes. but *he doesnt tell me he'll save me or take me away or any knight in armor stories *he and i are adults that enjoy eachothers company i lay in *his bed and *he stares at me and smiles and touches my face and my hair and sighs and i do nothing but accept it allow it i just stare at the ceiling/walls/whatever else and i talk to myself in my head. and when i turn my head to look at *him *he's already smiling at me cos *hes a friend and *he likes me (or so i think *he does) like i knew (or thought i knew) he would so long ago and i exhales so sharply my breath leaves me altogether and i collapse in *his bed and i dont think *he sees and i assume [too much] |
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