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2010-01-09 | 6:00 p.m.
oh when i go i'll probably see several people that i know and they'll see me, and they'll hug me they will tell me that i'm funny and that they don't see me enough at these sort of shows. all the art is on display and people pretend to know what to look for... and my friends will pretend not to know what to look for... but they're looking for a piece of ass to facebook and fuck and they'll be looking at them. not i. i'll be drinking. trying to stay warm. trying to be funny. trying to look like i ain't tryin at all. and i don't think i want to go. i have no patience in my bones. lapsing into these fits- where i am doing the most mundane things and then suddenly i lose all my air and i'm gasping. i convulse into weeping simultaneously and compose myself within a minute or two and finish whatever is at hand. its hard to watch myself do this, if at the the time i happen to look in the mirror, and not fall to my knees in abandon. but as soon as i lose it- i grab it all and stuff it back in. now i feel like i'm dripping everywhere i go. like little bits of me are falling out faster than i can pick them up. and i'm afraid someone will see though i can count those who care on no hands. the friends and family in my life have no time or patience for me, as i have none for myself. and if i let something slip i fear that would be the end. sob to stoic and no one. NO ONE. has ever seen me.
work on your management skills
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