break me down break me open

2002-08-12 | 1:38 a.m.

i hate my life so much

and i love so many things in it

i hate how i feel about alot of things

im so broken

broken here

on my flat face before God

as im crying and crying

and i spill out everything

because all i am is nothing

and i have so much crap to account for

and i want to die

and i just pray and cry and ask God to forgive me

because there is nothing else in the world to do.

and for good reason.

God just wants us to come back to him

why are we so very stupid and dificult

we dont know whats up we cant do this on our own

i just want jesus to cover me

im so horrible and stupid

please forgive me God